Mess

Sight is clearer after the tears

After the last salty drop streams down your cheek

The screaming heat on your skin is soothed

But don't tell me you never feel it

Don't tell me you never want to fight it

I know you have it

Admit it, just admit it

I can't sit around and let you treat me like this

I cant be beaten with this bat forever

Just give it up,

Just let it go

When the last word is said

When the first noose is tied

That's when you know

That's when the bomb has dropped

The atomic sound booms

It breaks my ear drums

They burst of life and death, 

Out seeps the stress of my world

Out seeps the declaration of defeat

All that was packaged inside

But the exportation was too far

It was returned quickly,

Back to the sole of my being

Bottled back up into my rudiments

I wish I could fuse it all

I wish I could coat it with the chemicals of my worry

And watch it dissipate in thousands of 

litte

tiny

pieces

But I will never know what it means to fight

I only know how it feels to remain

How it feels to grip with all your might

To clamp until your sockets disassemble

And hold on long enough to stay awake

Though some nights I wish I didn't

Some nights I wish I could go

And forfeit this battle

Some nights I wish I could